Tuesday, October 25, 2011

Day 4

Continuation of Story of Feather:  

The feather had dropped off my brow. I hoped it hadn't landed in the tapioca pudding on the stove that I was cooking for mother.  How can one search for such a tiny feather.  It meant a lot to me, but I had to let it go.   Many days later, I was standing in the dark kitchen on a wall to wall rug that is as busy as a New York Subway.  I felt something underfoot that felt like stepping on a piece of uncooked pasta.  I bent down to pick it up and discovered it was a twisty used to close plastic bags.  There in the dark, right as I was bending to pick the wire twisty off of the floor, I saw it, my feather.  It was so small and so camouflaged in this busy rug, but it wanted to be found.  My feather had returned to me. Now it is a mystic symbol; I put it in my Buddha Box on my desk for safekeeping.  For me, it was a wink from the universe to keep going, to keep the faith, to know that good happens and mystical occurences are all around.

Shortly after finding my feather and publishing my parable on kindle, Go with the Flow, I received a message for my next writing assignment.  I am creating a guide for attracting and keeping your Soulmate.  This is funny to me because at this now moment I don't have a Soulmate.  I am, nevertheless, now writing this guide and will report when it is published on kindle.

As I am writing it, I am learning a lot about this topic.  It is writing itself, as is the case with everything I write.  When we don't feel worthy and deserving of being with our intended Soulmate, we might attract Romances. These are experiences that may teach us great lessons and provide lots of fun, but also, perhaps, end in heartbreak.  There is a point where we decide to dive in and heal ourselves so that we feel ready and worthy, deserving and self-loving, to attract the right lifetime mate.  Then we can put away the false starts and stops of other relationships that are meant for a reason and may last a season.  They may be Fun and Joyous, Seasons in the Sun (Terry Jacks, 1974). But the Sun that can  be reached can only be found in starfish on the beach, not the gold of the milky way in the heavenly sphere of a healed heart.  We must feel worthy of such a Divine Relationship and attract that by loving ourselves.  Without self-love, we are in for a ride, not on a milky way, but on a trail of spilt tears that form oceans that we have to eventually navigate our life around.  There are not enough sponges in hell to mop up the mess.  Better to stop and clean up our own self-love, self-worth and deserving issues before having to buy a sailboat just to get around.   I will keep you updated on my progress.  In the meantime, Focus on the Good.  Focus on the Fun. Focus on attracting the Good Life.  Seek Ye First a mind of Focus on Good, and all else shall follow....