Monday, December 26, 2011

Contribution

Yesterday was the first day that I experienced Joshua Tree National Monument. It was practically in my backyard, but I had to wait until the time was right before exploring this exquisite rock climber's, meditator's, star gazer's paradise.  Picture rock outcroppings, Fred Flintstone appearing everywhere you look and purple dancing trees, well, maybe not the last part, unless you expand your mind a bit.  I went there with some new acquaintances.  All of us in our own world, in unusual worlds that are not part of this world, and yet, here we are.  We brought with us our strange reality. One of us was a Canadian version of Le Petit Prince, one of us, in his 7th decade, was an amazing world-traveling astrologer, and one of us, me, was a white witch in hiding still looking to find her broom.

Here's what I learned:  Saturn has been conjunct my sun in a placement that was to its detriment, meaning it has been in my way and making me feel like I wasn't getting supported down here.  However, with all that fire, if it wasn't shading part of me, I'd be a chaotic inferno.  The answer: talk to Saturn and work with it instead of struggle.  It wants my rebellious Aries to settle into pattern, into discipline, into structure, into restriction.  I've wanted to shrug it off, break free, leave my body and fly around in the ethers.  I've craved the Freedom of being without a body and wanted to go home ever since I've understood that my home was in the ethers.  Yet, since I find myself here, I am now to make peace with this planet and appreciate that a bit of structure is a good thing.  Does this mean I have to make my bed every morning?  Well, I would if I could walk around my entire bed and have access to the space around it, but I don't. So, we'll conveniently skip that one and start with what I can develop into pattern.  Although, I don't want to commit to structure and then back out like I had so many times before, so I will just invite it in and have it stay for tea.  I will have conversations with this Saturn and make peace with it after all; I will somehow come down to the earth plane and do certain things that my rebellious Aries would have screamed at. 

The other thing that Paul Six, the astrologer, told me that made a shift is about Contribution.  When I asked him about making money, I began to explain how I really don't like the way people live on this planet. They all seem to clamor about and do things to attract others to give them money. Even spiritual people write pages of copy that are very long asking repeatedly, buy from me, this will make you better or improve something.  It felt like everyone was begging from another, needed someone to be sick that they could heal, needed someone to be hungry so they could feed, needed someone to be tired so they could provide a bed, needed someone to want something or need something in order to get money from them.  What about our Higher Power within that is the Source of all things.  Do we have to write pages of copy to advertise to our inner Source to give us light and energy, enthusiasm and Joy?  Forget about it, I thought, that is not the world for me.  So, I withdrew, all the while trying to figure out how the heaven I was going to make it on this planet while I insisted that everyone should quit their job if they didn't like it and make FUN the prime importance.

Then Paul nonchalantly answered my dilemma.  "Contribute," he said.  Instead of trying to get money, thinking about acquiring it, and making it the same soup du jour of worry, I could think in terms of what I would like to contribute and just be focused on sharing what I have to share.  That sounded so simple that it almost passed me by.  You mean I don't have to change my neuro-chemistry in order to attract money, I can just dwell on contributing to the earth plane and everything will flow from that?  That I can do.  That has no, "Buy from me Lady," pulling on my skirt.  If I attribute money flowing in from what I contribute, then it shifts the focus from asking to giving.  Then, as I invite Saturn's discipline/restriction in order to write diligently combined with contributing through whatever I am given to contribute, I would surely be able to breath easily and sleep at night.  Voila, astrology is a healing science.  But beware, amateurs can steer us the wrong way.  I remember a cousin of mine that brielfy studied astrology who called me a "selfish shell fish" due to my sun being in Aries.  However, she never knew of the placement of my North Node and so pushed me to believe that I should give more to others when in fact, because my North Node is in Aries, I need to learn to give more to myself, to be centered in me.  So when the world is learning to give to others, to serve, I have to find balance in my service, come up for air, and give to myself.  What a novel idea!  

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